How has it been over a month since I have posted?! Sheesh! We've been a little busy with house buying and selling lately. Our house sold after 15 days on the market- pretty insane! And a few weeks ago we found our new house! Though we won't be moving until January. We are excited for more space and still being able to live in this area of WF, which we love! Our new house is only 0.8 miles from our house now- love how God truly is in every little detail of our life. So I've been busy on Pinterest and finding new projects for decorating the new house, finishing up projects here, etc, and some traveling thrown in there- it's been a great distraction from the overwhelming wait of this adoption. That's another reason I haven't posted as of late- there has been no news. After getting our October #'s last month and seeing our boy number stay the same for the 3rd month in a row, it was a bit discouraging. I didn't do a post for our October #'s, but we were 30 boy and 40 girl. Thankfully, there were a few referrals this month, praise the Lord! Some months we lose focus that these numbers are not just our waitlist numbers, but they represent children, children who were orphans, and are now daughters/sons! So amazing! So we should see some movement in our numbers in a few days. Honestly, each month I am praying that we won't get numbers, that we will get our referral instead.
These last few months, since July really, when we updated our parameters, have been a roller coaster. We have been praying like never before. I was journaling this morning and thinking about how the end of the year is coming quickly, and I am still trusting in God's word, and his promise to complete this adoption. I am confident that 9 months ago I felt God tell me to pray boldly for a referral by the end of the year. And these past few months with little to no movement have been hard. This is the 3rd holiday season we've gone through without our child. We never thought that would happen. Sorry if this post is jumbled and makes little sense. There are just so many things going on in my head and heart right now that it is hard to express them, as I read on a friend's blog yesterday, it's hard to put into words, and it's hard for others to understand unless they've gone through it. This has been the most trying season of our life- but we know that He makes all things beautiful. All of the pain in the wait is nothing compared to the eternal weight of glory that we will receive. The wait will make sense when we look into our child's face for the first time and realize that God has perfectly ordained him/her for our family. And on the hard days, that is what I have to remember. I was reading through Psalms this morning and was reminded that God is for me, even when it seems like this wait will never end, His plan is greater. And he has a record of all of my tossings and tears. All the nights that I lay awake thinking about our baby, wondering if he's safe and warm and healthy. God knows, and loves him incredibly more than I ever could. And most of all, my hope is in Christ and his work on the cross- not in whether or not we get a phone call. But please keep praying boldly with us, that God would fulfill his promise to do more than we could ever ask or imagine!
