Weary

Friends, today I am just weary in this wait.  This is the hardest thing we've ever had to do.  We have not been submitted to the Embassy this week.  We apparently received misinformation, and we are still waiting on some medical test results to come in.  We have no idea how much longer we will have to wait. We totally and completely signed up for this with Ryah being a waiting child-knowing that these test would be required when we got to this point.  But knowing that, and thinking they are already done is exactly where we were until about 4:00 yesterday afternoon, and then I received the email that this test was not back yet. And we likely have weeks/months more waiting ahead of us.  Honestly, I want to scream.  To the system, my sweet Ryah is just a stack of paperwork that will get done when it gets done.  To us, she is a beloved, precious daughter who should have been home months ago and is now still growing up in an orphanage.  The system is broken, this world is broken.  My daughter will celebrate yet another birthday not in the arms of a family.  Our hearts are aching. I would get on a plane right now if it would make any difference.  If we could afford to stay in the country until all of this was resolved, we would do it in a heart beat.  But we wait. Heartbroken, weary, and just wanting our daughter home.  I have been trying to soak myself in the Word today and last night after getting this news.  We know that He is in control and his purposes are greater.  This is what I have been reading:

"From of old no one has heard or perceived by the ear, no eye has seen a God besides you, who ACTS for those who WAIT for him" Isaiah 64:4

And John Piper reminded us that God acts while we wait. We are begging him to act on behalf of our sweet daughter. To do a miracle that can only point others to him.

"In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith-more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire- may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ."

1 Peter 1:6-7

I want this to be the cry of my heart. We want his glory to shine through our story. Because the truth is, obviously, we cannot do this on our own. We are not strong enough. We need our Father to act. Ryah is in his hands, and we have to trust. We have to trust that our Father is good and our daughter will come home. He will finish what he started.